todayy went to school ,,
chinese test 41.5 / 50 eh !
and i pass myy socialstudies too !
then meet babbyy at his house ,,
he didn't sent me back home ,,
he need to studyy ,, and wann him to studyy ..
although i dunn like to go home alone ! but i never tell him ,,
i dunn wann him because of me never studyy (:
butbutbut ,,
when i reach home i called spidercatFAN ask him for cigg ):
and babbyy also on the line eh !
ifeltsobad !
i wann to hide myself under my blanket !
i was so silent !
i cried ,, i hang up the phone ,,
but babbyy use house phone call me ,,
i pick up ,, i cried like shit !
SORRYYbabbyy ! although babbyy sayy he forgive me ,,
i still feel so guilty ! WHY ?!
maybe if he scold me i'll feel better ,,
but he didn't ,, but i scared babbyy will leave me !
i slaped myself 4times hard enough to remind myself ,,
promise is NOT meant to be broken !